Hoo. Boy.
The Tennessee Star is reporting that they've gotten their hands on scans of nearly 4 dozen images, around 80 pages, of journals written by the transgender shooter who killed 6 Christians at a Nashville school last year.
The FBI has been holding onto the manifesto for some time now, even in the face of a court order, refusing to release it.
In November of last year, we got our first peek at the writing of the shooter, thanks to Steven Crowder, and the cops who allegedly leaked the manifesto were punished for their actions.
On Wednesday, the FBI reasserted their position that they would NOT be releasing the writings to the public, classifying them as "legacy tokens." This means they contain rhetoric and information that could fuel future attacks.
The FBI concluded their memo to MNPD by claiming "legacy tokens" related to school shootings are particularly "likely to spark incredibly intense interest and study by potential offenders who are considering a school based attack," and claimed "[e]xperts agree" society should take steps to reduce such attacks that include "limiting the availability of legacy tokens for ideation, study, and inspiration by those considering an attack."
Alright, so we now have the official FBI reasoning for suppressing the manifesto and journals.
Anyone who is paying attention to the politicization of the FBI and the narrative shaping going on knows that the journals are almost certainly being suppressed because of the political implications.
And if what the Star has is accurate, the implications are damning to the regime.
According to the reports, one month prior to the attack, the shooter wrote a political rant, without naming parties, and decried the state of DC and Tennessee politics.
'So now in America, it makes one a criminal to have a gun or, be transgender, or non-binary," wrote [Redacted]. She added, 'God I hate those s***head politicians.'
After warning about rights for the disabled, [Redacted] wrote, 'Disabled have rights, civil races have rights, LGBTQ have rights, gun owners have rights ... '
'So now [because] of you, I wish death on myself cause of the pure hatred of my female gender,' [Redacted] declared. She added, 'with no rights, anyone's country is a s***** dictatorship.'
So she was mad about gun rights AND trans rights, I guess? A very twisted mind.
The Covenant killer had Covenant in mind as a target for a while. She wrote in another entry something that indicated she was planning on shooting up the school a month earlier than the final attack.
On the next page, [Redacted] left a two-sentence entry that could indicate she previously planned to commit her attack on the Covenant School on Friday, February 17, 2023.
'Covenant was closed yesterday.' [Redacted] wrote in an entry that appears to be dated February 18, 'I guess it was [because] of the weather.'
Three weeks prior to the shooting, the killer allegedly wrote that she needed a "trans doctor" and that her therapist for her autism was apparently not helpful.
She continued, ‘this female gender role makes me want to not exist -,' scratching out a word to the point where it is illegible. [Redacted] then wrote, 'no. to be completely gone in physical form… off the face of the earth.'
Another entry reveals that in January 2023, the shooter called the suicide prevention hotline five times, but, according to her, received no help for her mental illness.
She denied being bipolar; however, she was apparently diagnosed by her doctors with bipolar disorder. She insisted that her doctors "didn't get" autism.
She continued, 'no one gets me - everyone misunderstands autism,' before later adding, 'I'm not emo or bi-polar' [SIC] but 'a f***** with no lover.'
Leaving the journals momentarily, it is important to discuss what we know of the shooter's mental health.
Metro-Nashville Police learned that the killer was a patient with Vanderbilt for mental health reasons for more than 20 years before she committed the mass killing.
The Tennessee Star was also able to review notes from doctors at Vanderbilt, including the drugs that the shooter was put on by the doctors. However, there's no way to know whether the shooter was on or off her meds at the time of the Covenant killings.
The search warrant served by Metro Nashville Police Department (MNPD) to obtain information from Vanderbilt University Medical Center (VUMC) about Covenant School killer [Redacted], obtained by The Tennessee Star, reveals Hale was prescribed at least four medications from VUMC staff ...
[The shooter] was given access to Buspirone, Lexapro or Escitalopram, Hydroxyzine, and a sodium chloride nasal spray by doctors at VUMC.
Lexapro or Escitalopram is a depression med that's in the SSRI family.
Common side effects for Lexapro include 'mood swings, headache, tiredness, sleep changes, and brief feelings similar to electric shock,' according to WebMD, which added that '[s]ome conditions may become worse when this drug is suddenly stopped.'
The fact that the killer was potentially on SSRIs is an interesting development, to say the least.
Back to the journals, the mind of the killer and her twisted sexual perversions became clear in multiple entries where she discussed her struggle with transgenderism, her "imaginary penis," and sexual fantasies.
[The shooter]'s diary or journal entry begins with the title 'My Imaginary Penis' and includes a crude drawing.
'My penis exists in my head. I swear to god I'm a male,' wrote [Redacted] in the diary or journal recovered by police. She then wrote about her desire to have a penis for the purpose of heterosexual sex with a woman.
While the entry is sexually explicit in nature, [Redacted] also wrote about her experience using the name Aiden, which she began using during her transition. [Redacted] explained that using the name on a job application for a delivery position resulted in issues with the company's background check.
The shooter described the "torture" of being sexually confused and says she discovered transgenderism in her early 20s, but her mother specifically opposed it.
'I hate parental views; how my mom sees me as a daughter - and she'd not bear to want to lose that daughter because a son would be the death of [Redacted].'
Just 16 days before the attack, the shooter detailed playing out sexual fantasies with her stuffed animals, imagining herself as a male in heterosexual intercourse.
Some of her stuffed animals were discovered left behind in the car she drove to the shooting, and in other parts of the journal she worried about the fate of her stuffed toys as well.
Deeply disturbing stuff.
She also wrote about her frustration with being misgendered, as well as her failed attempts to identify as a boy.
She had a lot of anger toward religion and conservatives throughout her journals.
Here are more of the ravings:
On the first page of the notebook, [Redacted] questioned, 'why does my brain not work right?' Then wrote, 'Cause I was born wrong.' She then wrote, 'Nothing on earth can save me… never ending pain. Religion won't save.'
In an undated, two-sentence entry approximately 60 pages later, [Redacted] wrote, 'The [cocoon] of my old self will die when I leave my body behind and the boy in me will be free; in the butterfly transformation; the real me.'
She concluded, 'If God won't give me a boy body in heaven, then Jesus is a f*****.'
This young woman was so full of confusion, and hatred, and was obviously battling many personal demons during this time.
In another entry, she declared herself "the most unhappy boy alive."
In the final pages of the journal, dated just hours before the killing of 6 Christians at Covenant Christian School in Nashville, the shooter writes about how a previous plan to shoot up the school had almost been discovered years before.
[Redacted]'s journal entry is titled 'Death Day' and includes the symbol Hale regularly drew when referencing her plans to commit an attack at the school.
'The day has finally come,' wrote [Redacted]. 'I can't believe it's here. Don't know how I was able to get this far, but here I am,' she added before revealing that she was both nervous and excited.
[Redacted] then admitted, 'There were several times I could have been caught, especially back in the summer of 2021.'
This portion of the journal had been leaked previously by Steven Crowder, as referenced above.
Other reports from the Star allege that the shooter had fantasies of school shootings ever since middle school.
Police also sought to establish '[Redacted]'s mental state before the incident and at the time of the incident" and told VUMC the information would be used to assist with the "identification, apprehension and prosecution" of potential suspects.
These claims follow the report by 99.7 WTN radio host Brian Wilson that [Redacted] expressed fantasies to her therapist about murdering her father and committing a school shooting. On Wednesday, Wilson additionally reported that [Redacted] fantasized about committing a school shooting since she was a middle school student.
This is all incredibly disturbing.
It makes complete sense why the pro-left FBI would try to hide it.
But the FBI wasn't alone.
The Southern Baptist Convention is in Indianapolis this month. If you're a Southern Baptist, it might be worth your time to ask why your chief lobbyist went out of his way to try and suppress the manifesto.
If these reports are correct, it reveals how deep and dark the world of transgenderism can be.
So incredibly disturbing and beyond devastating for the families of the six who were murdered by an anti-Christian trans killer.
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